A matter of time

Written by: Chavani Ripfumelo Constacia

Time flies
It runs like a river flow
We meet when the time was still ticking
I put you under my skin just like a tick
You sucked my blood,
And become full and fat from my flash

You grew to be part of me,
And I never envied to part ways with you
You were the reason why I kept on going
The purpose why I was pleased

Yet, along the way…
You chose to make a move
And departed somewhere else,
where you sipped a distinct zest of blood
From there you concluded not to appear back

I learned you were kept up somewhere,
Nevertheless, I had wished that you will return back
You vacated,
but never carried everything with you
You fled…
But left your heart in my pointers under my attention.
You abandoned some pieces of you in my mentality
And I never napped,
I dozed every evening with one sight open.
Worried that somebody might snatch your heart from me.
Scared that I might not find it eternally.

Moments expired,
Days flew.
Year’s departed,
But u never reimbursed.
Still, I was gripping on to you
Dreaming that one day you will come back to me
Still, the was no indication of you
Wherever I ran there was no hint of you
I marveled where you are
I wondered if u were safe
I needed to know if you are comfortable
But none will give me a report of how you are bearing up.

I never earned peace of mind,
Neither rest.
Days and nights were the same to me
You were actively mingling my mind

How are you are holding up wherever you are?
I attempted looking for you numerous times
I made an effort to digging your whereabouts,
Regardless my endeavor never worked
Because you were nowhere to be found
You were somewhere where you couldn’t be noticed.
Someplace enclosing for me not to detect you
You never wished for anything to do with me anymore.

I wondered what wrong I have done,
To squeamish you this sizable.
Why you gave up on me?
Why you never needed to be found?
I never halted looking for you,
Until presently!!
Now that I understand u are pleased wherever you are.

But I realize now,
That was just a matter of time.